Shit World

I am proudly announcing that my medical leave has been extended to 2 more weeks. Last day for now is 21st July. YAYYYYYY! And here's the repair work done to the meniscus tear in my knees:



So I shall not be too bugged about work, although I will put up some online lessons. This is crap. I dun wana work like this anymore. And I'm not the only one too. The Ministry has to do something about this situation. A little bit more democracy, perhaps. People like us are overworked and underpaid. It is certainly not very fair if you're doing the same amount of work as the degree holders but being paid only a fraction of what they draw. I (We) wouldn't have to lament so much if we are properly recognised and paid. It is a bloody rat race and I'd rather drop out and be a sales assistant. Or receptionist. Absolutely no homework at all. Or planning. Or marking.

I hung out at my bf's place yesterday after seeing the ortho n the physiotherapist. Had a ridiculously long chat with his Mom and she gave me a really sweet necklace she bought at Bangkok. And 2 tank tops, a pair of shoes and another shawl. We talked til the bf fell asleep. And til I fell asleep.

I'm quite bummed that Finland is probably not gona happen. And I hate not having any solid plan to follow. I hate uncertainties cuz it will bring me back to the 'dark ages'. So I came out with a few options:

a) Spend my savings on a makeup artistry diploma (haven't I have enough of those already?) while working part-time, somewhere.
b) Check out if I fit the bill to work with NWA (a minah's job but it's ok - i get to travel)
c) Take my degree at Lasalle for a year (with part-time work) and then get to any Scandinavian country to get my Mater's... and then return here as a lecturer.

Option C seems to be the best, sane one. As said by the bf. But I havent had a break since I started my tertiary ed in 2002. The only break I had was the 6 months between after O levels and Lasalle. How time flies - I've been going on for 7 years!

I hope this will change next year - I am at a dangerous phase right now. All I wanna do is have fun... work for fun and fun forever.

Quite a number of people may say I'm so lucky to have work at this time. But not many may understand what I am actually going through.

I can't walk in a straight line, I can't work with ghosts of Rutherford (those people act so smart when they are actually really dumb). And I certainly can't conform to senseless regulations.

Fuck you all.