Fashion Styling is My Destiny

A few weeks ago I have suggested a Rock Star theme for a certain party. And this was inspired by J.Humphrey in GG.

And some time, way back, I was smitten with the trashy indie-elektro look. And Lady Gaga epitomises this look some time after. Initially I was inspired by M.I.A, how I wish I could go crazy with all those prints and colours!

If you have been up to date with fashion, you would probably be familiar with the looks I have described.

And all these waves came kinda late in SG. Only now I see Rock Star Baby by Birkenstock, and everywhere everywhere!!!!

Sounds like I'm in my own world right now ain't it? Like so full of myself? If you don't like what you read then X this page ok?

So after all this, I feel that Fashion Styling is my calling. For those close to me, you might know I apparently have so many callings! I had wanted to be a documentary filmmaker before, a lecturer, science research, makeup etc. But there is nothing I feel strongly about other than fashion and making the world look good. I just need to find my platform.

I do research about my future when I find the time. I find the photography degree offered by NTU's ADM interesting. I definitely need to compile my portfolio. Really soon, and I need to get advanced standing too, so I can move on to 3rd year and not waste any time. I hope my work experience now will help me secure a spot there.

And studying in NTU = FREE. No tuition fees if I apply to Mendaki.

I can't wait to start studying again but it's all so difficult when no pay is coming in. I really need to do something about that.

Cuz if I study, who's gon' pay for the car + petrol + parking? That is if I drive to sch. If I choose to stay in a hostel, who's gon pay for it too? Daddy said dun worry about anything, but he's so old now I can't bear to see him go on working, and having to do it extra hard wen I'm studying.

I can take a loan but loan interests are shit.

I hate being an adult.

And now I feel a lil bit neurotic. I wonder if anyone shares the same neurotic experience as me.

I have voices in my head telling me shit and I have to constantly fight them. They will say horrible things and I find myself fighting those voices and saying to them 'no, it's not right,' and i'll end up in a headache cuz it feels like a bustling bazaar in there. And I fail to shut them all up. And I will start feeling nauseous, and my brain feels really hot that it's burning and I feel like I need to get stoned. I feel sick that there's too many things going on in my head. I love my bf for keeping up with this shit.

Anyways, I love storets.com. cuz they have almost everything a fashion-conscious guitar god needs.